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March 27 all in allWhen I really think about how blessed I am and how much worse things could be, I realize that I complain to much. Shame on me. My kids are awesome (though human), we have a house, food, clothing, electricity and many comforts people in dire situations could only dream on having. By and large we are happy and healthy.
The times and amount that I complain are silly. Everyone needs to vent a little now and then.... we are very human. I think for me, I need to spend more time focusing on what's good in my life. There are many people in it that are God-sends. I imagine what I would have done without so and so or another person and I know my life would be poorer if they had not been it. Sometimes, it's just the cashier who went out of his way to be cherrful at work and sometimes it's a best friend who listened to you when you thought all was lost. And helped you realize it was not.
Just for today I am focussing in the good stuff.
March 22 Happy Easter! Wow, how did this creep on me?! I have a few things to do today.... including grocery shopping and maybe picking up Jamie. I love how everyone lets me know. Col told me last night she works 12-4 today.... then I try to wake her up to go and she tells my it's actually 2:45. Huh? No wonder I can never get things done.... I am always waiting on other people's schedules!!!!!! Hear a little frustration? Yeah, a little. Okay, so I need to refocus on good things.... gonna so it.... think I'll go out and take my walk while I have some waiting time. Have a wonderful Easter!!!!! March 20 windyWell, we have sun, but my is it windy out there! Can you tell, I'm putting off going to walk? Bet ya can't... no not at all! Got through track practice this morning. Was soooooo glad I brought gloves. It's crazy to think it's Spring and sooooo doggone cold out. Makes me wanna scream a little. Nothing much new. Hoping to see my buddy Robin tomorrow. Need some good "girl-gab" time. I am enjoying the break so much it's ridiculous. It's going to be difficult going back. Oh well. The kids took this right before Colleen started college. Would have been perfect if Jamie hadn't blocked Eddie's face. I love my kids! March 16 just in time! Whew, Spring break has come exactly when I need it. With all the extra side jobs I have been working, I am tired. It's good to have the days off my "regular" job this week. I still have a job at a big company, the college class and 2 track practices, but it will feel like a piece of cake. It was been great to have the girls home. I had missed them so much. We all went out to an outdoor flea market yesterday and had a very nice time. It was colder than I expected and Colleen switched my jean jacket for her sweatshirt hoodie. Both kept me warm by snuggling up as we walked. The girls got some cute things - sunglasses, thermal shirt, J got 2 musical instruments from other countries. I got 2 bracelets. One has the Serenity Prayer on it, which is my saving grace more often than I would like to admit. The other is a knock off Pandora bracelet and one charm - a heart shape with my birthstone for a breaking up with Jerry and I gotta love myself present. It felt decadent to buy 2 things for myself but hey.... I don't know hey what. Guess I felt like treating myself a little. Jamie has already gone back - one of her roommates was nice enough to stop here on his way back and pick her up. Col works until 4, then will have to pack her things and we'll head to her school. I'll miss them. They're exactly where they're supposed to be and doing what they should be doing.... I'm just a sappy mom. Got the packet of info for Eddie going to States for SkillsUSA. I knew we would have to get a few things, but not as much as we actually do. He needs black pants, 2 white shirts, a plain black tie, another pair of black socks, khakis and collared shirts for the kids' off time. Cha-ching! Will be going to Walmart and Target for most of the items. Man. It's alright though, he needs some clothes anyway. I'm sure these are not exactly what he would pick, but we'll get these, then work on regular clothes. He's a little stressed right now - there are 2 major papers due. Ihave no idea why the English paper and SS are due at nearly the same time - it makes no sense to me. One or the other is going to suffer for most of the kids. Have gotten a few texts from Jerry. It's weird.... I am getting to where I think I am getting over him and he starts texting again Go figure. He has also taken down the sites I found and removed the one woman from his friends list. Still, he will/would have to do some major talking and overhaul of his behavior to win me back. I have also been talking alot to another guy.... weird. Feast or famine? Am taking everything very easy and not reading anything into anyone's actions. Life is so weird sometimes! At work, one of my PE buddies is starting a work our program for all of us. Basically, it is encouraging us to do some kind of exercise for 30 minutes, 5 times a week. We have logs to write in when we exercise. She is also going to post who walks or whatever before/during/after the work day so we can have a work out buddy if we want to. It's just enough to get me motivated again. There are at least 50 people signed up. May be the start of a whole new Janice!! I'm looking forward to it. Well, need to get a few things done before I have to go pick up Colleenie from work. Have a wonderful weekend! (week) Lyns - wow.... so busy! I really enjoyed the letter to yourself. I am assuming it is because you had to grow up so fast, but you are at a much better place knowing who you are and how awesome you are than I ever was at your age. That's wonderful! Glad you can see how far you've come and the strides you have made and are proud of you. C's baseball team sounds great.. glad you're enjoying that. Seems many things are good right now for you - woohoo!!!!!!! You deserve it and then some. Take care. March 15 cheap post Someone sent this to me, so.... of course I am using it here!
March 12 workin' Haven't been by much. Last Monday, Spring sports started practices. One of the deaf kids is on track. I wish he would have found this his freshman year. As a junior, it's really tough starting out and I'm getting some vibes from the coaches. Not my problem and they haven't done cuts so.... seems they cannot ask him to leave. (I hope) Today, the head coach came over and let me know there were some "rumblings". The athletic director's secretary said something along the lines of if we cannot have an interpreter there, then he cannot practice. Uh.... that would be a violation of his IEP. I dunno. I may be over reacting - have been known to do that. My internal alarms were kind of going into over-drive. I have some things I need to check out. I really hope it does not come down to he cannot participate because of this. The school has never said this before - lets say for at least 10 deaf kids I can think of off the top of my head in at least 15 different teams. There are alot of conversations I need to have and ideas to present to my supervisor. Shazbut! Anyway, last week I interpreted after my "regular"day every day M-F,and Saturday I had an all day workshop. This week I am "only" interpreting 3 extra days with 4 jobs. I work again tonight.... I just hope this meeting does not go as late as it has been known to go in the past. I should probably be napping! The extra dollars will be very welcome. It is however making me one tiredddddd woman. Colleen came home last Friday. I went down to pick her up as it was supposed to rain most of Friday and Saturday. She was planning to take the train home, but that would have been a huge pain. Jamie went to NY to see her dad's family. Mostly her cousins. It sounds like she had a really good time. That's awesome. Bill's sister Kathleen Anne is always great with all of the kids. Her grandfather got to show her a bunch of things when he took her to the bus on Tuesday. I think they both enjoyed that. Col is at her boyfriend's house. Yeah, I'm thrilled. Guess I have to grab the family time when it's good for her. Eddie had a presentation thing at the school board meeting. Kinda choked me up. They had the tech school kids line up, the director described each kid's competition, how they placed and if they were going to states. I was proud when they announced Eddie's place and all. When they were done though, they had the kids go to each board member and shake their hands individually. It got me choked up. A few of them had something to say to each of the kids and it just got me. Funny thing is, Jamie was sitting next to me and it got her, too. What saps we are. :-) Well, I better go. March 03 Spring....?
Wow. I looked at my last post and noticed all the times I transposed letters. I don’t know why that happens so much. Maybe I’m thinking faster than I can type or am just tired. Who knows? I’m typing my posts in word for now and then copying and pasting them.
The weekend was good. I got a half hour walk in yesterday. It was chilly enough that my ears kind of hurt when I was done, but it felt lovely to be out there walking. Amazing when near mid 40s feels warm and inviting!
Saturday night, I ended up going out to a Beef N Beer. (I’m finding out that the whole world does not know what this is…. It is a fund-raiser. You pay one price and are supposed to be able to drink the beer you want and eat as much roast beef as you want.) Liam’s former room-mates’ family were the beneficiaries. I think they did not have life insurance on Chris when he died and the funeral expenses were difficult. There may be a foundation set up in Chris’ name as well. Hopefully I will have more info on that soon. Liam had told me about the event Friday night. He also said if I wanted to go to let him know and he would ride up with me.
I got to meet Chris and Dan’s family. They are very sweet people and think highly of Liam. Small world – the boys’ step mom also works for the IU. (the special ed agency I work for) A woman who had a son on Liam’s baseball team eons ago and her husband were there - it was nice to see them. I saw a lot of Liam’s buddies that all grew up together. As goofy as they all were/are they all looked good and are doing well. The bar was packed… which I hope really helps the family.
So many came up and commented about how neat a “kid” Liam is. (He’s almost 23) Many are concerned with how he is fairing after having found Chris. As far as I can tell, Liam is ok. He doesn’t really talk that much or in depth with me. I think much of the time, he doesn’t want to upset or worry me. I appreciate that, but can listen.
He and I talked about some things. He really seems to appreciate all the things we all got through together and even seems to understand all the times I was “up his butt” as he says when he was a teen. We touched on a lot of things - most were basically how much we care for each other and how we appreciate the things we have done for each other. He’s concerned about his siblings and wants to spend time with them and help when he can. If Liam keeps working so hard and saving he should be able to finally get a car again and start back in electrical work.
Eddie and I ended up having a discussion last night, too. He has been out a lot and sometimes forgets to call or let me know what’s going on. That lead to me not knowing where he was overnight Saturday into Sunday and I kind of blasted him when he finally got home. We both got some things out that needed to be said. It comes down to that Eddie is a bit afraid of “growing up” and does goofy/stupid stuff when that really hits. My gosh, does being 17 seem that scary? It does sometimes, apparently. Guess I’m too old to remember.
Today was the first day for “spring” sports season practices. The Spring is in quotation marks because I have often slipped on ice on the ground or been standing in a snow storm during these practices. March is notorious for weird weather. Today was lovely. It was in the 60s, clear and if it weren’t for the wind it would have been down right balmy. One of the deaf students is joining track. It’s kind of hard for a kid to start a new sport as a junior – I give the kid a lot of credit. I worked with the team about 3 other times, but it has been a while. The head coach and jumping coaches are the same. It was like seeing old friends. I hope the weather holds as long as possible. I know full well though that we may be standing in snow as soon as next week. For now, I’ll take the clear, warm days whenever possible and enjoy them.
Wierd... I know I am way sensitive to noticing when a motorcycle goes past. I swear I might have seen Jerry ride past the house today. Then again.. maybe it wasn't. Maybe it was just my over-active imagination. |
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