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November 29 Playin hookieAhh. Used one of my 60 sick days today. Last night, I could feel my sinuses filling up and starting to be aggrivated. Joy, joy. They're really not that bad, but one of my co-wokers just came back to work yesterday after being in the hospital. Since our room is so teeny, I don't want to be in close proximity to her if I have something. Of course, that doesn't keep her from getting something from the other 1200+ people in our building.
We were all supposed to go to Jamie's Holiday concert this Saturday. There was a mix up with tickets - someone told her the wrong time for the performance - there is one at 3:00 and one at 7:00. Jamie got 6 tickets for 3:00 and of course her show is at 7:00. When she went to chnage them, there were none left for the 7 pm show. Grrr. I like that concert. It is many of the groups from the college and since most are music majors, it's an awesome performance. She has a show with her barbershop group Dec. 9th, no tickets required. Will be going to that.
Havent really done anything with my day off. I have been a little run down lately, so I am tyring to re-charge my batteries. Did some surfing and may try once again to scan pictires. I feel like the ones I have up now are soooo old.
Nothing else really to post about. Have a lovely day. November 26 rainy and Monday Ok, so who's the wise guy that decided it should rain the first day back to work after Thanksgiving vacation? Oh, that would be the Big Guy... never mind! Not much fun going back to work. To go back on a rainy day just isn't my thing. But hey, we got Monday out of the way. :-)
It's always nice to be back to work if only to see he kids again. I miss them when we are away. (though not enough to give up the off days!!) In some ways, it was good to see my co-workers too. They're a good bunch. Course, we were missing Chris today. She wasn't feeling well last week. Finally ended up taking off Weds and ended up going to the hospital. Chris has an incredibly high pain tolerance. This was good when she was birthin her babies, but can lead to her being way more sick than anyone including herself realizes. She has some kidney problems anyway... turns out she has a bad kidney infection. The only antibiotics she's not allergic to that will work on the infection are given via IV. Hopefully they were fitting her with a pic line so she can go home today. She swears if they let her out she will be back at work tomrrow... making me a little nuts. Stinks she had to be in the hosptial over the Holiday weekend. I just want ther better. Not the only one obviously, I would just like to see some things go her way for once.
Finally talked to Jerry this evening. He is pleading being beat from work - it's the end of the month which is always crazy for them. I miss him and apparently I am a big baby. (he didn't say that I just feel that way) Maybe he'll resurface after this week is done.
Apparently at work, there was an "incident" today. I never knew a blessed thing. Usually I see the police cars near our classroom and the security office is just down the hall from us. I haven't really heard anything beyond what the head principal sent out. (which wasn't all that much) I'm sure the kids will be talking about it in school tomorrow. One of the girls had been threatened by a guy... today he had a knife. Nothing happened, someone got wind of it and one of the more "one the ball" assistant principals became involved. (thank goodness!)
Our supervisor came by to meet with us as well. That is always a treat. She's more of a yes man than any man I've ever met... all of the departmental supervisors are. My friend, Niety has been our liason for forever. The liasons historicaly have met with the head of our IU and or the board to negotiate any of our concerns and our agreements. We do not have a contract per se as we are non union, paraprofessionals. In the past it has been very congenial and Niety has done a great job helping our job title move from assistant status to paraprofessionals. (above the assitants in pay and skill requirements, but below the teachers and such) With the shift in focus the IU has shown since last Spring, it is not all that surprising that this comitte has also changed - without any notice to the liasons. Anything Niety brought up was shot down with "you have to go to your supervisor with that". Even when she was saying something positive, the head "CEO" asked the head of personnel to step into the hall. They walked out and closed the door not even bothering to say excuse me while Niety was in midsentence. He made a crack about the alternative school expanding and now taking non-IEPed kids, hoping we get "lots". Wait, who wishes for lots of emotionally disturbed, problem kids or kids that just cannot handle a "regular" school???? WTF??? (excuse my language) To me this is callous at best and harmful at worst. Niety has stepped down as our liason. I am not surprised and I support her in her decision. Chris and I may try to take it together, promising to kick each other under the table as the need arises.
It is crystal clear to me where we and the kids stand. The thrust specifically here in southeast PA is for little deaf kids to be fitted with a cochlear implant. I understand parents going for the technology....what I don't get is that they are not using sign language at all as another tool when there is a surge of baby sign programs that tout the advantages of hearing babies learning to sign. We have been asking the IU for at least a decade to work with ____. (local Children's hospital) says on their website and literature that all methods of communication are avaiable to parents and their implanted children. So why is no one chosing this? Programs in other parts of PA and nationwide are using sign language with deaf, implanted children. Ok, we'll gamble that the CI is a magic cure even though the doctors cannot predict which patients will be sucessful.. If the parents do not do the years of intensive therapies there's not a snow ball's chance it will "take". But hey... let's roll the dice and hope the oral/aural only method works...even though when you finally figure out it might not have the synapses that were supposed to fire at a specific point in a child's development do not and the langauge window in a sense closes. There are some that can make up that deficit, but it is extremely difficult and rare. I have seen kids with language delays, which often lead to cognitive delays and it is heartbreaking. To not have language to make sense of the world and let your basic needs/desires be known is downright criminal.
So.. our illustrious supervisor takes copious notes on our concerns. She gives us very little feedback other than when the current juniors graduate, the HS program closes. (unless there is some influx of transfers from somewhere) Then there are 5 left in the elementary level. When pressed about not working with the local children's hospital, I was told that we can only go with what the families want. (WHO IN MY MIND ARE NOT BEING TOLD EVERYTHING!!!) It's just as well. I cannot stomach how the IU treats the people who work there... the same people they claim to value so much and depend on. They way they treat us ends up effecting the kids. We do our best to give the kids our best every day. Being treated like dirt wears on you. Morale falls and we become tired. When we are tired, we are not as excited to engage the kids in learning and we cannot give them our best. They deserve at least our best. For now, I step up my efforts to put out feelers elsewhere and bide my time. The kids will get my very best, which is pretty daggone good. I will not do anything less.
Life goes on, and this may be the beginning of a new chapter. In the past I have resisted change- going kicking and screaming into a transition. You know what? These changes have usually turned out for the better. So, I need to repeat that to myself about 100 billion times untill it is firmly in my soul. Who knows.... maybe I can even apply for a job as an interpreter for the Library of Congress, Congress, or the CIA I see in my professional journals every so often. That would be a dream job and a half for me even if it was a temporary position. Eddie will be out of high school by then, so who knows???? November 24 scannerI find myself a ltitle frustrated that I cannot get my doggone scanner to work. The pictures of Colleen's move in day and Jerry's and my trip are decent and I wanted to post them. Every time I try, I get a message saying that says the scanner is busy. Dang.
Yesterday was quiet. I had no desire to fight crowds to find a bargain. Most of the day was shuttling Colleen and Eddie to work, or making sure Eddie had bus fare for the way home. The girls went out to a concert in NJ. The finally made it there an hour after the show started. Apparently there was some sisterly bickering going on even before they were lost. They kept calling and asking me to look up diretctions for them. Of course neither even knew what town they were in. The Black Horse Pike/Rte 42 is apparently very poorly marked and nearly impossible to find. I'm sure waking up 45 minutes before you leave and only checking one on line map source had nothing at all to do with them getting lost. Oh, and you cannot give someone directions while they are still moving. Pull the heck over and figure out where you are!!!
Rant done. Today, I am hoping to get some work done around the house and a bit of raking done. Both maples out front ar almost done dropping leaves, and so the front yard is deep in leaves. Yesterday was too windy to rake.
Happy Saturday.
Lynsey - good luck with the bartending. Looks like a good idea and I am sure you will make the most of it, like you always do! November 23 Happy Thanksgiving!Hope everyong was able to enjoy a nice Thanksgiving. Ours was very nice. It's good to have the girls home. They are goofy and silly and smart and wonderful, and I enjoy hvaing them around. The dinner was excellent. Kevin definitely CAN cook, and was considerate enough to make nearly everything without dairy - and it was delicious! The pies were alright. Yes, I am hypercritical of what I make or do, but I misplaced the recipee card for Apple Pie filling my mom had written out for me, so I had to wing it. The pie was alright but I know I have made better. We all had "turkey comas" afterward and did not leave Debbie's till about 9:40 or so. Liam called from work just before we left and he had no idea what time they might be done. Was a crazy day at the restaurant where he works. Jerry called while we were attacking the pies. It was nice to hear from him. My nephews don't belioeve he exists as he hasn't been to any family Holiday things. They were busting on me about that last night, so I texted Jerry. I can understand he has issues surrounding the Holidays, but I guess I am not as understanding as I would like to be. I want him to be flexible when there's baggage I have that gets in our way, so I should be like that for him.
Anyway... it seemed like everyone enjoyed the meal and seeing each other. Colleen had to be in to work at 6:30 this morning, and Eddie at 10:00. The mall was busy enough when I dropped off Colleen that the parking lot was nearly half full. By 9:45ish, it was full. I feel bad for the kids having to work today, but hey a job's a job. At least they won't be bored today.
Am looking forward to having today and the weekend off. I have to finally catch up with paying for the raidator today, have to put gas in the car and want to get Eddie another work shirt. (he has been wearing the same one and doesn't want to wash it since it may not be dry in time -ick!) The girls will be going to a show in NJ about an hour away fomr here tonight. Jamie keep asking if I think the car will make it. As far as I know, it should. I cannot really garauntee her that nothing will happen. They've known about this show for a long time -ordered tickets int he summer, but did not find a ride. Go figure.
Want to get the day started. It's cold out but the sun is shinning nicely. November 21 Yay!Car's still working. Took it to the car wash today, still needs some scrubbing. Picked up Jamie - barely any traffic. Off from work untill Monday. 2 pumpkin pies in the oven....
Great day! November 20 keeping fingers and toes crossed!Picked up the Toyota again tonight. I want to be excited about it but am almost afraid to. There is a possibility I will be going to pick up Colleen tonight... which could be interesting.... a 45 minute drive each way, through a not so great section of Philadelphia... great plan on a car I'm not sure of. Then again, I will be going out tomorrow to pikc up Jamie. Another 45 minute drive but not through Phila. Who knows which would be more of a test? Time will tell.
The Toyota needed a new alternator. Not so surprsing I guess. The money wasnt so bad this time... although I was not thrilled about paying for a tow again. Figured out what I've paid in towing fees the last 4 weeks - about $230. Not where I want my money to go. So when I'm done posting this, I will be joing AAA. Jerry saved me some money by getting the alternator for me. I'm not sure how he can get it cheaper than the repair place can, but he did by about $80. Last night when I went to pick it up at his house, he tried to talk me into not paying him back right away if I am strapped. He confuses me. He was nice enough to get the part for me to save me money. Doesnt want to come to Thanksgiving. The Holidays get to him, mostly cuz I think that's when his son was moved across country and away from him. Yet, he gets me parts to save me money and does things like save all the cards and things I've made for or given him. I'd like him to be a part of the Hoildays with me, but I'm not going to push it if it's something that bothers him. He's been patient with some of the issues I carry with me, so I can only treat him as I want to be treated.
Looking forward to having the girls home. I really like having them here. The ride home is always good as it gives us time alone to talk about whatever pops up. Of course, I didn't get the cleaning done I wanted to- so what else is new? Who knows, maybe I can as I bake the pies and Friday on I can get busy.
Going to pick up Colleen. Say a prayer the car makes it there and back. November 18 Believe in a Better Way!I may have already talked about this one. The English teacher I work with used this song as a background of a slide show he put together on immigration. Mr M. was introdusing How the Garcia Girls lost their Accents. I work with some talented people. How cool is this?
Better Way lyrics I'm a living sunset Lightning in my bones Push me to the edge But my will is stone Fools will be fools And wise will be wise But i will look this world Straight in the eyes What good is a man Who won't take a stand What good is a cynic With no better plan Reality is sharp It cuts at me like a knife Everyone i know Is in the fight of their life Take your face out of your hands And clear your eyes You have a right to your dreams And don't be denied I believe in a better way November 16 highs and lowsWell.. what a week! We had field trips to a college about 45 minutes away - the deaf kids were there to answer questions from ed. majors and then the ed. majors taught them a mini-lesson. That was kinda fun. Weds, we had a trip to the National Aquarium in Baltimore. Even more fun and I find the aquarium to be a very interesting place.
I did get my car Wednesday night and it was cool to have some wheels again. It seemed like it was running pretty well. Last night the alternator went, which isn't all that surprising. Considering how long the Toyota sat... I hope I'm not jinxing myself by saying it still isn't so bad. Of course, while I haven't had transportation I have had to turn down three freelance jobs. That really stinks. So... I will try to limp it back to the repair shop and have them test the alternator. Jerry stopped by to look at it for me and it pretty much did the same thing it did last night... just kind of pooped out. If they test it and the alternator is bad, he can get me one for about $80 cheaper than they could and I could ask them to install it. That feels a little cheesy, but I have to save every penny I can. We had the electric turned off yesterday as I was trying to wait, pay for the car repairs first, then outstanding utlities, etc. Stretched it all too much as I didn't have all the needed cashola. Robbing Peter to pay Paul... gotta love it. That's why it kills to have to turn down jobs. I am so strapped right now.
Anyway... I was surprised the Jster came by. Maybe we're on an upswing. It will be tough the next few weeks with the whole holidays thing. He has already turned down Thanks at my sister's house. Guess I will just take him a plate out. He was here when I needed him today. Maybe someone whopped him upside his head. We shall see what we shall see as far as he goes. He did see that I was upset today. (have been since last night, but managed to get through work today... it was either that or stay in a cold house. He made me feel better and is helping me get a less expensive alternater.
Yesterday, I started more or less of a ceramics class. My friend from work, Steve is a master potter. He is nice enough to have a few of the staff in after school about once a week to learn some basic skills. I got there almost an hour late - paying the electric bill. I looked around and got an idea of what people were doing. Any time I interpreted that class for the kids, I didn't make anything, as I wanted to be available and ready to interpret. (since that IS my job!) Once I calmed down I had fun. I have no idea what my little bowl is going to look like, but I enjoyed the process. I will, however be careful who I set up next to. The woman next to me is nice enough, but she talks wayyyyy too much and kept telling me what to do. I'm sure she was just trying to be helpful, but she was making me a little nuts. When I get there on time and let myself just enjoy I think I will really have fun.
Also last night our school had a "wing bowl". I'm not all that fond of eating contests. Kids run this as their graduation project as a fund raiser. The first year, the money was given to the family of a police officer who died when he crashed driving on the job. Since then, they have given to various organizations. This year, they were donating to Alex's Lemonade Stand at Children's Hospital of Philafelphia. It was in memory of one of our young teacher's daughter who died at 18 months from leukemia. I worked one of the ticket tables as people came in. (we had 3) It was hectic but fun and nearly all of the kids who came were great. A few told me to keep the change. That was cool. There were also many adults who told me to keep the change as well. Love it. There was food sold in the lobby and lots of parents, students and staff helping out. The contestants (students and teachers) had entourages and were announced arena style. I didn't stay untill the very end (3rd round) but what I saw was pretty fun. The gym was decorated and between rounds they announced winners of the gift baskets raffled off. I only put in 2 tickets, so I guess I should not be all that surprised that I did not win anything. The young teacher who lost her baby was there and she won one. It gave me goose bumps the way the kids reacted when they announced her name. The whole school has really taken her and her family into its heart. The three main kids who ran it got on the morning announcements today to thank everyone who came and helped out. They said they were not done counting money, but so far they had raised over $14000. So cool.
A former colleague of ours stopped by for a visit today. She is retired adn dang if we don't still miss her. Guess she last worked with us about 4-5 years ago. Jane is a force to be reconned with, all 100 pounds and 5'3" or so of her. She's also one of the nicest people I have ever met. She brought by a Jewish Apple Cake for my buddy, Chris' birthday. That was nice, as Chris is going through a hard time. Chris was married to a guy we now not so fondly call "Wacky". They have 3 beautiful children. They split shortly after Bill and I did. Only Chris has Wacky living much closer than I had Bill. Wacky usually only wants to see the kids when it inconveniences Chris or suits his needs. He has stalked her and calls her no end. Well... seemed like Chris was back on track. She deals with Wacky as needed and the best way she can. She's a great mom and found a good guy. They're building a house together to move into in February. Weds while we were in Baltimore, John called and said the doc found a shadow on John's chest x ray. WTHeck. Not fully panicking yet. It may be scar tissue from John having pneumonia earlier. He had tests yesterday and another one on Monday. I just wonder when Chris can get a break. I just want them to be happy.
Am looking forward to Thanksgiving at my sister's house. My nephew, the chef, is cooking for us down here this year. It will be great to be with everyone and Kevin can cook like crazy. I will be makign pies and maybe something else. Haven't really decided yet. Colleen comes hom Weds, and I will be driving out (hopefully) to pick up Jamie as soon as i get done work on Weds. (about 11:00) It will be good to have the kiddos home. I love my (BIG) babies.
November 13 tomorrow!!!!! Tomorrow I will be picking up the Toyota!!! Woohoo a working vehicle. How cool is that? To me, very cool. Living in the suburbs without your own transportation stinks. I have a renewed admiration for people who have to take what passes for public transportation around here to go to work everyday. The workshop I went to on Saturday cost me $8.00 total. Both ways were off peak. I don't get how people do this that make what I do or less. The bus is a little more reasonable - $2.00 each way $2.75 with a transfer,
Tomorrow I have a field trip to the Baltimore aquarium. I am relaly looking forward to it, but it will make getting my car a little more complicated. Whatever... will make it work! November 11 Thank You  To all of the Men and Women who have served/are serving
and their loved ones-
THANK YOU!
Happy Veterans' Day!
November 10 tired!Was on a train by 6:52 this morning. That's early for a Saturday. But it was okay... we had a workshop today. My bussy from work, Niety was nicwe enough to pick me up from the train about 1/2 way into the city. We drove together the rest of the way. The workshop was informative and challenging. I felt I learned a good deal and will put the info to good use. My friend Chris from work was there as well. We got to see some former colleagues - one who we mentored and another who used to work with us and now is a lawyer as well as a stellar interpreters. The workshop was 9-5 and my brain is pretty much fried now. Unfortunately, Niety and I hit just enough traffic to make me just miss the 5:42 train, so I got to wait about 40 minutes for the next train at 6:48. Walked home from the station, so I got my exercise today. We went out to lunch at a Whole Foods that was fairly close, but a good invigorating walk. I also got to eat lunch with the interpreting director from the video relay service I am thinking about working for at some point. (can you say networking opportunity?)
I cannot remember what time I wrote my post from yesterday, but soon after Jerry called. Apparently I had left a bag of my clothes in his car. He brought it by. We talked a little and it was nice to see him. He did invite me up to his house, but oh yeah I don't have a car right now. I did figure out that there's a bus that runs up to his place. (but not untill about 9 last night and didnt want to start that whole adventure that late when I knew I had the workshop today) It's always something. Just about the time I'm ready to throw in the towel, I see him again or something. Go figure. He veen mentioned getting the pictures from the trip that I mailed to his house. There had been some instances before where I mailed or dropped off something and he never mentioned them. I finally explained how I felt when that happened.... this time he did mention getting the pictures. Yay! So, maybe he does listen... well I know he does when I say something. Just have to say what I need once in a while I guess. Not so hard.
Interesting... yesterday Jerry seemed to want to talk to Eddie and he asked where he was when we talked tonight. Not sure how Eddie would respond, but I guess that would depend on what all was said. Lord knows the boy isn't being all that forthcoming with any details to me. I may be calling the station to ask a few more questions. It would be so much easier if Eddie would just spill everything.
Jamie called last night about 10:15 asking my advice. Normally I really enojoy this. This time, it was hey what do I do if I smell smoke but cannot find the source in my own apartment and the other folks living in the other 2 apartments in our building are not home? It was enough that it was making Jamie cough. Her roommate was there and both girls had the good sense to get out of there. This was one of those times where Jamie being 45 minutes away feels more like 4500 minutes away. I told her call the landlord to come check it out and if it gets ANY worse, call 911. Well, they called the landlord, he came out and figured out the 1st floor people were cooking peppers and that was what was smoking. Only thing was, they weren't home. Hello? Yikes. Darlin' Jamie forgets to call Mom back and say - it's all alright Mom. Finally about 11:20 I call her and say - Hey, what's happening???? "Oh, I forgot to call you back! We're fine Mom" Okie dokie.... at least then I could go to sleep. I thought maybe being a parent of older kids would feel easier.... when does this "easier" period start?
I'm beat. Need to take out my contacts and get into comfy clothes. November 09 Friday already?How is it already Friday?! I'll take it I like Fridays, but it just feels like this week flew by.
The toyota was towed to the repair place on Tuesday, and I haven't heard anything from them. I don't know if that's good bad or none of the above. Once again, I am at a point where I'm done being patient with not having a car. You just cannot do it for any length of time out here in the 'burbs. There is SOME train and bus service but not enough to be able to do what you normally do with a car. A bag o' money falling from the sky would be awesome about now.
Jamie's still amazing to me and I am proud proud proud of her. The otehr kids are fine. I would like to whoop Eddie upside the head right now, but it's a stupid kid thing. Mommy's just not paying the fine this time, the boy himself will be. May be the best lesson for him.
No Jerry again for the last few days. History is repeating itself and apparently I need to be whooped upside my head many times before I "get" it. Who knows what "it" even is, I certainly do not. Sucks for me.
Other than that nothing new. Earlier this week I felt thoroughly defeated. I can honestly now say I do not feel that way so much now. Yay for me. November 04 I can go where I want!After the last week of not having a car at all, I can go where I want today. (and yesterday) Debbie took me over to pick up the rental yesterday. It's really nice to be able to just go and do what I need to do. I went and cleaned out the Saturn yesterday. Sort of felt like saying good bye to an old friend. If you think about it, 3 of my kids learned to drive on that car. It served us well. I am not the best about getting oil changes and regular maintence done. The girls were probably not the easiest on it either. Like the time I got a call form a Police Dept about 2 towns over. They were telling me that my car was in the middle of a parking lot. They had put cones around it. Apparently Jamie had not set the parking brake all the way and it rolled. She about fell over when she finally came out and saw it. I will be calling the guy to pick it up today so I can get it off my insurance.
I decided to have the Toyota looked at. It seems silly to leave it sitting in the driveway and not be used. I hope to get it running and save up some money to get another car and hand over the Toytota to Jamie in running order. I feel good that I have a plan at least. Took me a while but hey, I did finally do it.
Spoke to Jerry. He sounded good, but it does sound like he is trying to figure something out. What he told me was that oil has gotten too expensive and he is trying to figure out an alternative heating source. I think he may also be figuring out "us". Just a feeling I have. At least we're commnicating again. He did say that he thought the Toyota was my best bet. So, I will be paying another towing fee... hopefully this time it will have a good outcome. Will send him out the pictures from the trip. Hope to get them posted too, but the scanner has not been cooperating with me. Got back pictures from Colleen moving into her dorm as well, some really good ones.
There was a brutal attack on a female student at Colleen's college. Busy classroom building between 6-7pm. The school is located in a rough section of Philadelphia, and most people think I'm nuts to let her go there. First off, sending a kid to a school they do not want to be at is a waste of time and money. Second, there are no completely safe college campuses in the US. Jamie tells me about stuff that happens at her school as well and it is in a lovely suburban area. Colleen's school has as much security as is humanly possble. She is also pretty savy about keeping herself safe. I know that does not garuntee she will remain safe, but you do what you can and hope for the best. The area is streaming with police as an officer was killed about 30-40 blocks from her campus and there is an all out manhunt for the suspect. I feel for both families and the girl. It can all change in a second, especially in Philadelphia. I really hope when the new mayor gets in, most likely Mr. Nutter, things will change for the better.
Has been an interesting week at work. Right now we have 4 deaf students. Three out of the four were involved in some questionable practices regarding a huge Health project. Two students openly plagerized their paper. Copied and pasted "information in this brochure..." without a citation or anything. The whole paper was cut and pasted. The project was worth major points and the students had been told that if they failed the project, they would fail the marking period. The student I was working with was partnered with another student who was transferred to a different Health class. The problems with these two was getting the paper handed in and doing the oral presentation. The other student told the deaf student she had handed the paper to the teacher she now has. She never did. Luckily, the deaf student still had the email where the girl told him that. The teacher allowed him to turn in his part of the paper. Then on the day they were supposed to do the oral presentation, she just never showed up. Huh? How do you do that? She failed the marking period. The 2 plagerizers were allowed to redo the paper for a possible top grade of a C. That was terribly nice of the teacher, but the kids still had an attitude. WTHeck! How can you have an attitude when you are given a gift like that? Man, there is a feelin of entitlement with this group that I just do not get. They are generally nice kids. This underlying attitude stinks though.
The sun is shinning and my coffee is calling. What a beautiful Sunday!
November 03 cars!It will be a busy weeekend. My sister is taking me over so I can pick up a rental car. The fee is fairly cheap, and i just need to be able to get a few things done for a few days. I found a guy that will come and pick up the Saturn. He's giving me a little money for it, so that will at least cover the rental for a few days. I don't mind having to ask for rides a little, but a whole week got to me.
Am still debating if I will try to have the Toyota fixed or go with a place that will finance me. The Toyota makes more sense, and at least the car would be used rather than just sitting in the driveway. Will be calling my brother Jim in a little bit to see what he thinks. I am not looking forward to cleaning out my car, but Colleen is coming home today and told me she would help me clean it out.
Then I have to get downstairs and check out the heater to re-start it and the hot water heater. The water just doesn't get very hot any more. The water heater is not that old, so it shouldn't be anything big.
Lots to do! November 01 can I spell?Who knows? I looked over my post from yesterday - man that was full of spelling or typing mistakes!
Ah well, I guess no one is perfect, certainly not me.
I am pretty much exhausted today. Have felt that way for the last few days. Must be everything ganging up on me. It stinks that everything went from nice and relaxed during the trip to so much crap.
I am not a bad person. So where is all this awful crap coming from? No, it’s not the end of the world but it feels sucky. Yep, that’s not a real word but hey it works for me right now. My hormones are in full swing so everything looks worse than it is. And some of it is bad.
Tomorrow I have to start the process of getting rid of a car that doesn’t run and needs far more work than it’s worth. Of course, I cannot find the title. That happens when you’re not organized. I also have to decide if I should have Jamie’s Toyota looked at and repaired. It has been sitting for a long time. It could just need something simple. Or, I might be able to get a loan from a "buy here pay here" car place, but the interest will be high, and another payment really isn’t a great idea right now. Still, I have to get to work and be able to do simple things like pick up prescriptions and such. Where’s my fairy godmother when I need her?
Jerry has not been in contact since last Friday. (we got back from our trip Tuesday night) The trip was nice and I thought we both had a good time. I called and asked for his input when the car broke down and heard nothing. The last time I had it towed and repaired he told me he could have done it. (he didn’t even look at it) I emailed yesterday and asked if what the shop was saying about it this time sounded plausible. Again nothing. So of course today I was able to pick up the pictures from the trip and they just make me feel sad. How could I once again have been so wrong? I miss the buggar but at the same time he has disappeared again when things are crappy in my life. This makes it feel crappier.
I guess I need a positiveness infusion. There are some good things in the midst of all of this. Debbie has finally started asking if I need rides or anything. My buddies at work are the best. Patti has been giving me a ride both ways all week. Niety took me to pick up my prescriptions and a few things at the grocery store. Jamie seems to be feeling better. She is taking some very brave and healthy steps to help herself feel better and to be able to handle things better. I am immensely proud of her. I have a job and prospects to earn more money. Just got a check from a few jobs I did in September. The money is NICE.
The sun’ll come out tomorrow. Corny yes, but something I have to keep in mind. |
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